Army

Link to Topical Guide "Army" (blogger isn't giving me an option any more to embedded it straight into the post title).

For the record, I am 36 weeks pregnant and the doctor said I could pop any day now.  That isn't really a good excuses for my ridiculous lack of posting, but for all of you who read this know that this blog isn't the most reliable weekly reading material anyways.

There were lots of good scriptures this topic, including a great one from Ezekiel about God breathing life into dried bones to create an army (Ezekiel 37:10), but I would like to talk about a scripture that isn't actually listed.  I found it while reading the chapter for the Doctrine & Covenants 105:26 reference.  It is Doctrine & Covenants 105:14:

14 For behold, I do not require at their hands to fight the battles of Zion; for, as I said in a former commandment, even so will I fulfil—I will fight your battles.

These past few months, especially these past few weeks, have been more than a little stressful for me.  Not so much in stuff that has been going on, but in anticipation of giving birth and suddenly becoming responsible for a baby.  Fortunately my fears of my son's future choices and experience when he's a teenager have taken a back row seat to more immediate concerns (like going through labor), but the height of worrying has not decreased.

I was discussing this with a friend the other day and they pointed out that what I'm really afraid of is losing control of the situation.  In labor there are things you can do, but you really have no control over your body.  Once you have the baby, you can only do so much, but whether or not the baby will respond to the methods and ideas you've been reading about for the past couple of months is completely out of your control.  Sure it is meant to be humbling, but it is also terrifying.

I guess this is why this scripture jumped off the page at me when I read it.  That even though I might have no control, God is still in control.  From reading through my past posts, letting go seems to be something in this life I really have to work on.